Revelation

An aimless spirit, a lingering soul,

one that doesn't let me sleep

 One that raises many questions
with thoughts that can't speak

& blurs the vision I use to see

questions in which I don't need answered 

or can't answer

          I wasn't always this way

 it was simply a dream 

To live freely without a specific destination 

for the future is a revelation 

only a mouth full of experiences

a heart with beautiful told secrets

 and many feelings to sing 

         I have an appetite to be intimate with myself and you 

& to continuously achieve autonomy 

Convincing ourselves that we are worthy 

Hopefully, you listen to the body I use to speak 

A tongue that does the walking 

         Wont you dispel the myths of being poor 

because I see a survivor

a strumming hero with great stories

because we all know that I could get lost in your tongue

I want to know your story 

& where you come from 

Dispel your myths of suffering 

because I see strength

from every lesson you've kept

         Last night is this morning

and you're glistening

 It's the present and were living 

Im afraid too

but we build the bridges as we walk that way

and sing the songs were to afraid to say

Yes, No, Maybe so

For all of my dreams to come true, i’d crawl

awake at night watching my thoughts, just like particles, fall 

My parents instilled the art of praying if I wanted a real change 

so for a second I thought, damn, I may need to be saved

through the binoculars you say I’m insane 

but under my finger tips I found my escape 

my eyes wide open as my heart beat tells my brain

wanting something greater than the sounds of the trains

that i heard at night when all of the world was asleep 

while the moon beautifully awaits the sun as she silently weeps

for it to come back 

like a lost dream that fell into the cracks

or a lost puppy looking for some facts

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there were so many days just wasted 

being lost and jaded 

impatient and frustrated 

loving something tainted 

getting so dismayed 

driving in the vehicle & wondering if i should just wreck it

Words from my heart do you fear it or do you feel it?

writing things down needing someone to hear it

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Found something so speakable 

now we’re doing the unspeakable 

talking about the “unreachable” 

sipping on our wine as we plan for the unthinkable

making it about purpose because life in itself is not meaningful

every morning is anything but dreadful 

because i’d give my life for the truth 

and that’s the truth 

crawling to the top but starting at the roof

overreaction is the under reaction

I know you can be capable of loving me 

but you’re too busy reliving all of your misery

to even realize when you’re treating me unfairly 

I’d like to think I know you better than you’d think 

so there’s a part of you inside of me that speak

I need to be the one to say, i’m loosing faith 

in something I wanted until death 

and that was the only thing that could do us apart 

but now it’s like you just can’t stop 

your tongue spits venom that doesn’t last

you chase women that can’t come back

only to take yourself to a place when everything was in tact

you say you can’t stop 

but it’s not fair you’re on a single race to the top

it’s the empty promises that control us

words that come from you don’t come from love

words that come from you show me i’m not enough

you’re saying anything and all I’m hearing is unjust 

everything i gave you i don’t want it back 

but there’s no need to over react 

sometimes people serve their purpose 

and the rest becomes irrelevant 

I think I’m losing faith when it’s all said and done

but, baby, you’re already gone. 

Mastering the master

Pure certainty 

Is how you looked at me 

All of your words 

And everything you showed me

I stayed in bliss 

With just enough ignornace 

It's the parts of me 

That most can't see 

Is the part of me 

That keeps you coming 

You've mastered the art of touch 

And it's sealed in gold 

You lose just enough 

and I surrender my control

Because you feel me 

under my diamonds and gold 

You're more than enough 

and we take notes

as we help each other unfold. 

Trouble never felt so good

Im in a small team
But maybe I shouldn't be?
We're all similar so differently

And there you go being overly friendly
And I just gives those looks out like candy
And we live it like were dreaming
 cause it's about what we haven't seen

Whats a night without a cigarette
Doing things we never wanna forget
You pour my life into a wine glass
Conversations get heated and were smoking too fast
I speak about love lust death and fate
You fall every time and I always become your soulmate

You say I'm trouble
But you're trouble

It's the sound of your name
That silences my demons and puts them to shame.

Perhaps so

When you think you love someone you naturally want to become a better individual, you aspire to be better, to obtain a softer touch, a sweeter smile, a louder laugh, and a nicer smell. You automatically begin to place this persons interest before your own. Maybe it's not even about falling in love with someone for dancing with your angels, but falling in love with someone who has the power to silence your most powerful demons with the single sound of their name. I mean do we really know what we think we know? When you're out of love you're most likely to do anything just to feel something. And sometimes hell is meant to be seen so that we appreciate heaven when it comes ... Perhaps love is meant to save us from ourselves.

Expectations

What should we really expect from today and on after?

pity, bliss, or maybe non stop laughter

The outcome of a decision from a distant field of smiles

With sleepless nights of an unforgettable series of miles

What should we actually expect to gain?

Possibly a day, a week, a month with no pain

Or a strengthful yet naive mended beating heart

But I know we've already made a mark

What could we literally expect say

The truth; A lie, or the dream we dreamt during the day

But, I can tell you what I expect from after today

wakeful nights of you screaming my name

comfortably cryless hours and my hand in yours

The beat of our hearts dancing of course

in our dimful room beneath the light of our love

and he who introduced us; watching from above.

You'll show me what you expect from today and on after

when your words tickle my heart; & fill me up with laughter, 

the pain my cheeks feel from the smile to each ear,

Are all continuous reminders that your heart is here

a victorious outcome of a stolen heart

because we couldn't stand to be apart

being so fearless with every step we take

and every memory we naturally make.

What can we really expect from after today?

it's something I cannot predict simply live it day by day

but I dream of a permanent smile with you as my shelter

and that's what makes our present stay for the later.

Do we just live it and wait

and hope our plans do not change

or do we live a dream and make our own fate?