Yes, No, Maybe so

For all of my dreams to come true, i’d crawl

awake at night watching my thoughts, just like particles, fall 

My parents instilled the art of praying if I wanted a real change 

so for a second I thought, damn, I may need to be saved

through the binoculars you say I’m insane 

but under my finger tips I found my escape 

my eyes wide open as my heart beat tells my brain

wanting something greater than the sounds of the trains

that i heard at night when all of the world was asleep 

while the moon beautifully awaits the sun as she silently weeps

for it to come back 

like a lost dream that fell into the cracks

or a lost puppy looking for some facts

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there were so many days just wasted 

being lost and jaded 

impatient and frustrated 

loving something tainted 

getting so dismayed 

driving in the vehicle & wondering if i should just wreck it

Words from my heart do you fear it or do you feel it?

writing things down needing someone to hear it

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Found something so speakable 

now we’re doing the unspeakable 

talking about the “unreachable” 

sipping on our wine as we plan for the unthinkable

making it about purpose because life in itself is not meaningful

every morning is anything but dreadful 

because i’d give my life for the truth 

and that’s the truth 

crawling to the top but starting at the roof

overreaction is the under reaction

I know you can be capable of loving me 

but you’re too busy reliving all of your misery

to even realize when you’re treating me unfairly 

I’d like to think I know you better than you’d think 

so there’s a part of you inside of me that speak

I need to be the one to say, i’m loosing faith 

in something I wanted until death 

and that was the only thing that could do us apart 

but now it’s like you just can’t stop 

your tongue spits venom that doesn’t last

you chase women that can’t come back

only to take yourself to a place when everything was in tact

you say you can’t stop 

but it’s not fair you’re on a single race to the top

it’s the empty promises that control us

words that come from you don’t come from love

words that come from you show me i’m not enough

you’re saying anything and all I’m hearing is unjust 

everything i gave you i don’t want it back 

but there’s no need to over react 

sometimes people serve their purpose 

and the rest becomes irrelevant 

I think I’m losing faith when it’s all said and done

but, baby, you’re already gone.