I would travel the world to find

And I’d run with my dreams just to have them in time

”Yes, I’ll go over but honey, what did you have in mind?”

What will you make me do?

When we pass the time will we waste it?

 I’m okay with whatever comes from this.

Through passionate times He turned water into wine.

I’ve come to find

That you can’t learn by standing in the line.

No fixed destination lets follow the blank sign.

 Don’t listen too closely to what they say

They’ll just try to kill you on your way.

My only advice is: 

Misery loves company, whatever you do, don't join in.

Take off your mask I want to see your face,

Intrigue my mind because I love the taste.

This town will offer many things.

But don’t stay long enough to see what it brings.

Lets go get high;

 It’s all that’s promising.

Your heart must beat for you

 And mine for mine
and we together we'll share the time. 

I just want to hear your story.

You’re either with me- or you’re leaving me.

 I don’t mind standing alone.

 I want you by my side but I can get there on my own.

So listen closely now, baby,

I promise this kind of life is hard to find.

Leave all of the comfort you once knew, behind.

 People search the world to be free,

Close your eyes so that you can clearly see.

I don’t think you know just how beautiful you are

 Something so simple shouldn’t be so hard.

With two feet in you’ll set the tone.

Lets follow our souls and walk each other home

Revelation

An aimless spirit, a lingering soul,

one that doesn't let me sleep

 One that raises many questions
with thoughts that can't speak

& blurs the vision I use to see

questions in which I don't need answered 

or can't answer

          I wasn't always this way

 it was simply a dream 

To live freely without a specific destination 

for the future is a revelation 

only a mouth full of experiences

a heart with beautiful told secrets

 and many feelings to sing 

         I have an appetite to be intimate with myself and you 

& to continuously achieve autonomy 

Convincing ourselves that we are worthy 

Hopefully, you listen to the body I use to speak 

A tongue that does the walking 

         Wont you dispel the myths of being poor 

because I see a survivor

a strumming hero with great stories

because we all know that I could get lost in your tongue

I want to know your story 

& where you come from 

Dispel your myths of suffering 

because I see strength

from every lesson you've kept

         Last night is this morning

and you're glistening

 It's the present and were living 

Im afraid too

but we build the bridges as we walk that way

and sing the songs were to afraid to say

Yes, No, Maybe so

For all of my dreams to come true, i’d crawl

awake at night watching my thoughts, just like particles, fall 

My parents instilled the art of praying if I wanted a real change 

so for a second I thought, damn, I may need to be saved

through the binoculars you say I’m insane 

but under my finger tips I found my escape 

my eyes wide open as my heart beat tells my brain

wanting something greater than the sounds of the trains

that i heard at night when all of the world was asleep 

while the moon beautifully awaits the sun as she silently weeps

for it to come back 

like a lost dream that fell into the cracks

or a lost puppy looking for some facts

X 

there were so many days just wasted 

being lost and jaded 

impatient and frustrated 

loving something tainted 

getting so dismayed 

driving in the vehicle & wondering if i should just wreck it

Words from my heart do you fear it or do you feel it?

writing things down needing someone to hear it

X

Found something so speakable 

now we’re doing the unspeakable 

talking about the “unreachable” 

sipping on our wine as we plan for the unthinkable

making it about purpose because life in itself is not meaningful

every morning is anything but dreadful 

because i’d give my life for the truth 

and that’s the truth 

crawling to the top but starting at the roof

overreaction is the under reaction

I know you can be capable of loving me 

but you’re too busy reliving all of your misery

to even realize when you’re treating me unfairly 

I’d like to think I know you better than you’d think 

so there’s a part of you inside of me that speak

I need to be the one to say, i’m loosing faith 

in something I wanted until death 

and that was the only thing that could do us apart 

but now it’s like you just can’t stop 

your tongue spits venom that doesn’t last

you chase women that can’t come back

only to take yourself to a place when everything was in tact

you say you can’t stop 

but it’s not fair you’re on a single race to the top

it’s the empty promises that control us

words that come from you don’t come from love

words that come from you show me i’m not enough

you’re saying anything and all I’m hearing is unjust 

everything i gave you i don’t want it back 

but there’s no need to over react 

sometimes people serve their purpose 

and the rest becomes irrelevant 

I think I’m losing faith when it’s all said and done

but, baby, you’re already gone. 

Mastering the master

Pure certainty 

Is how you looked at me 

All of your words 

And everything you showed me

I stayed in bliss 

With just enough ignornace 

It's the parts of me 

That most can't see 

Is the part of me 

That keeps you coming 

You've mastered the art of touch 

And it's sealed in gold 

You lose just enough 

and I surrender my control

Because you feel me 

under my diamonds and gold 

You're more than enough 

and we take notes

as we help each other unfold. 

Trouble never felt so good

Im in a small team
But maybe I shouldn't be?
We're all similar so differently

And there you go being overly friendly
And I just gives those looks out like candy
And we live it like were dreaming
 cause it's about what we haven't seen

Whats a night without a cigarette
Doing things we never wanna forget
You pour my life into a wine glass
Conversations get heated and were smoking too fast
I speak about love lust death and fate
You fall every time and I always become your soulmate

You say I'm trouble
But you're trouble

It's the sound of your name
That silences my demons and puts them to shame.

Perhaps so

When you think you love someone you naturally want to become a better individual, you aspire to be better, to obtain a softer touch, a sweeter smile, a louder laugh, and a nicer smell. You automatically begin to place this persons interest before your own. Maybe it's not even about falling in love with someone for dancing with your angels, but falling in love with someone who has the power to silence your most powerful demons with the single sound of their name. I mean do we really know what we think we know? When you're out of love you're most likely to do anything just to feel something. And sometimes hell is meant to be seen so that we appreciate heaven when it comes ... Perhaps love is meant to save us from ourselves.

Expectations

What should we really expect from today and on after?

pity, bliss, or maybe non stop laughter

The outcome of a decision from a distant field of smiles

With sleepless nights of an unforgettable series of miles

What should we actually expect to gain?

Possibly a day, a week, a month with no pain

Or a strengthful yet naive mended beating heart

But I know we've already made a mark

What could we literally expect say

The truth; A lie, or the dream we dreamt during the day

But, I can tell you what I expect from after today

wakeful nights of you screaming my name

comfortably cryless hours and my hand in yours

The beat of our hearts dancing of course

in our dimful room beneath the light of our love

and he who introduced us; watching from above.

You'll show me what you expect from today and on after

when your words tickle my heart; & fill me up with laughter, 

the pain my cheeks feel from the smile to each ear,

Are all continuous reminders that your heart is here

a victorious outcome of a stolen heart

because we couldn't stand to be apart

being so fearless with every step we take

and every memory we naturally make.

What can we really expect from after today?

it's something I cannot predict simply live it day by day

but I dream of a permanent smile with you as my shelter

and that's what makes our present stay for the later.

Do we just live it and wait

and hope our plans do not change

or do we live a dream and make our own fate?

An open letter to the XX

At one point in my life I watched you, watch him, while he watched me. I didn't know if I should feel sorry for you or for him. But I wanted him, man, I wanted him so badly. It was almost as if I couldn't resist him... and he knew it. He needed me; may have been safe to say we needed each other. I remember thinking to myself: "I'm going to take all that I can from him. He's going to be mine." Completely dismissing the fact that he was yours, I acted upon this desirable attraction. He didn't remind me with any actions either. But you know something, there was something about the innocence of it all that was as enticing as the desert he'd have prepared for me. It made them all want some. There was something about the innocence he'd taken from me that I discovered something about myself, about him. I kept at it, I kept at him. He kept coming back but always went back home to you. He was mine for dinner but yours for breakfast. Darling, it was liberating in a chained up at a buffet kind of way. He was mine from a far but he was yours from so close. Darling, you had nothing to worry about. He wasn't going to leave you, not for me, at least. Unless, you left him too. He wasn't going to just walk out on you. He's not a quitter. Besides, it was simply platonic. Until, you allowed it to get as far as it did. Yeah, because where there is chaos there is calculation.

Either way, we needed a miracle and what we got was each other. That's the funny thing about seizing the moments; they'll come back to haunt to you. To better understand the future maybe we sometimes we need to go back in time. 

At one point in my life I watched you, watch him, while he watched me. I know now that it wasn't him I felt sorry for. He needed someone to share his love and passions with. He has a certain darkness that allows you to see the stars. And you were just way to used to being left that you couldn't ever fully let him in. He's a gentleman who lived in an unappreciative place. & I'm a woman who loves diamonds. You made him feel dim; so he did what he knew to do; he shined in a world of vibrancy. I go back to that place sometimes, and wonder... Where would we be, had I not walked into his life that day? I can thank a million broken roads that led us straight to each other. It would've been foolish of us to not create our own magic. You know, some things are better off as memories only to look back on how far we've come. I may not have acted morally acceptable and he may not have been thinking straight but sometimes there's gotta be certain risks you're just willing to take.

The truth about the right person for you

The "right people" will never waltz right into your life at the "wrong time" because the right people, are well, timeless. The right time is a figment of our imagination. An excuse we tell ourselves to feel a little less... cold. All time disappears when you find the right person. You aren't worried about fitting them into a list of complexities in your planner, because it just naturally happens. They just become a part of your schedule. In all honesty, the right person isn't going to make you feel like they're standing in the way of your dreams and wants. They become your motivation to keep doing better and to keep trying to improve yourself because you have all of the time in the world with them around. When "it's not the right time" what you really mean is "its not the right person." They may be perfect but not perfect for you and that's okay! But the secret to having it all is acting like you already do. Think about it, you've just won the mega millions jackpot, why on earth would you wait to cash in the winning ticket? Just do me this favor and understand that there will never be a magical time when the universe heals all of your wounds or answers all of your questions... But I know there will be a person that walks into your life that makes the issue of time irrelevant for the simple fact of not wanting to waste another minute and knows that sometimes the "magic" you've been waiting for is just you seizing the moment and  making it yours!

My wildest dream

I feel like i've wanted you

ever since I could remember

You're all I spoke about

Being in your presence

creates a great amount of fear,

You bring me to awareness

of the present, to look within my soul

It's nirvana and you deliver me there.

You kill me

when people are around

and you rebuild me when i'm alone

I can't clearly explain

But I know it's you- You take me home

You handle my bones

And allow me to voice my soul

You remind me that I'm not alone

I promise it'll be just us two

You say it's up to me- but I say its up to you

Forever comes sooner than you think

I'll leave those pieces on the floor

So I can finally have you- my dream

Together we'll head towards the door.

I feel like i've wanted you

ever since I could remember

You say you'll love me like forever will be

This time around I won't be afraid & you say "follow me"

A motion picture

So I sat there and watched him

Ready to observe poetry in motion

A moment ever lasting 

Never Exhausting 

A motion picture, he became my movie 

I became ready to wear his skin

to help him wear himself thin 

and he'll inspire the words i'll say 

While I full-fill his every crave 

His soul will create waves

In the ocean, my wavering sea, just like the moon. 

Sometimes, I wonder if it's too soon

But we're killing time just as much as we kill the days 

Ready to rebuild ourselves

and watch the world move out of our way 

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Footprints of Ink

She tells stories to explain her life

With the fingertips that bleed ink

If its on the shelf she's said "Goodbye"

Along with many of the stories that she will tell

Some of you stayed and some of your fell

And when life gets crowded

There's times that even she has doubted

But it's nothing she can't say clearly

Through a keyboard that helps her dearly.

Rows of perfectly coherent sentences,

Other endless rows of scattered phrases

Stories that need no explanation

And others to no fixed destination

She stands this day

with smeared footprints of ink

others, in the ocean of her heart that stand

and never sink

Every story she's told

I bet you'd never know

If that was you- now or before

You are who she stands as today

And she wouldn't have wanted it

any other way

In hopes that one day,

She too, can keep someone awake. 

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